So it looks like we might finally be moving into spring. Thank you! Although I'm trying to be patient because the weather is very sporadic these days and you just never know what you might wake up to in the mornings. Either way I'm hoping the sun will shine more. I'm having a hard time getting my thoughts out these days. I'm wrestling with learning the difference in saying whats on your mind or pausing and let it process all the way through before speaking on it. For me this is a difficult task. I have found that I can hold my thoughts. That's not the problem. My problem, recognizing when to speak and when to pause. This is where I'm finding the difficulty. I have a lot of work to do yet!
I'm struggling redifining the boundaries between MPFOS and myself. It's hard to step back across that friendship line. It's kinda like when you lose the basketball and you can't keep it from going into the backcourt, and you know you have to touch the ball, but as soon as you do the ref's going to blow that damn whistle!!!! DAMN WHISTLE!! Anyway, it's been difficult to isolate what's in my heart for her to just friendship. Letting go is always so hard. She is embarking on a new journey that will help her fill up. Hopefully, she will find the things that will fill her home with tons of happiness and love.
For me it's back to work figuring out what's in store for my future. Just maybe, I can figure out what I would like to be when I grow up! So far I'm just treading water and it's so damn exhausting. There has to be a better way. Universe I got my heart open and my eyes front and center, so show me something. I'm listening!!!!
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