Week 2.....

Week 1 of the Dip Project is in the books and I'm proud to say that I think I did ok. The plan was 1 can a day fro 7 days. I'm happy to report I only used 5! I'm banking the money saved as I go, for whaterver, once this is done. I could have a good bit of cash stashed when this is over. I can use it to reward myself for putting this bad habit to rest.

I struggled at times this weekend. Especially Saturday. The weather was making everything seem so difficult. I just couldn't bring myself to go to Atlanta and splash around in the mud and rain. I stayed at home and watched some football. My Vols made me proud and love the Black Jerseys. I'm going to have to get me one of those!

Yesterday, I opted out of Pride as well. To be honest, I just didn't see the sense in it. What is the achievement of Pride?? What does Pride do for any us politically or financially? I need domestic partner benefits, I need a government that stands up for equal rights not rights for those that fit their mold! I need to see the difference in my everyday life not my nightlife! Plus, I have to be honest, I also just didn't feel like celebrating Pride. The last several Pride's I attended was with my wife at the time. Although it has been a year since the relationship ended I'm still finding it difficult to completely put everything in the Resolved Issues folder. We participated in the commitment ceremony at pride and took the opportunity to pledge our commitment to each other publicly before friends and family. What a crock! I should have took that stupid plaque with that stupid piece of paper (meant to serve as our marriage license)and gave it the ole heave ho into a river somewhere with the wedding ring, because it all turned out to be no more valuable than a bunch of party favors anyway! Sorry, like I said I'm finding it difficult to put everything to rest. What a waste.......

Oooops, I feel off the wagon. Please try and forgive me I'm still working on putting some feelings about the whole damn thing to bed. It's a process and regardless of this I am making positive steps forward with myself and life.

Either way, today is a new day. Today I'm working toward a better me! The second week of the dip project has begun! Wish me luck.............