Ok, As all of you who actually read this know, I have fallen off the wagon and I have hit hard. I have dipped whenever I have wanted and I have bought a whole sleeve of dip this past week. Now, I will tell you I have had a rough week. A lot of unexpected events have occured and it has rocked me down to my core! So of course, I turned to an old friend. KODIAK.
I know that all of you are thinking It's ok, sometimes we hit bumps in the road and I thank you. But let's get real! It's time to quit playing around and looking for outside excuses to fail at this project. I want to do this for myself so I shouldn't let any outside events knock me of track. This is important to me for several reasons. One, it puts more money in my pocket; two, it's an unhealthy habit; three, I need to do this to show myself that I do still have the discipline to do what needs to be done!
Over the years I have said to myself; "Now Teresa, patience and persistance is the key." Every time I started to give up on finishing my degree I would tell myself not to give up. As long as I was patient, the way wold reveal itself. Be persistant. with what I wanted to accomplish, and I would find a way. I did, and I finished my degree. It felt very good to finish something that I had so much doubt in my ability to do, and I learned a lot about myself in that journey. I have been a College Athlete, A Ropes Course Facilitator, An EMT, A Teacher, A 911 Dispatcher, and A Varsity Coach. Just to name a few. I am a daughter, sister, cousin, neice, granddaughter, aunt, godmother, and a friend. I have a creative side that gives my life color, I love hard, and I am capable of many things.
It is important to me to continue this journey of self discovery and remember who I am. I must remember all those times that I thought that it was out of my reach, all those times I was ready to give up, all of those moments when I was ready to concede that I would never reach my goal. I must remember that sometimes you cannot force things you have to wake up every day and look for the gifts that have been given to you. I must practice patience and persistance in getting myself to the places I want to go because every day that I am breathing is a day that I can move closer to being the person I want to be.
I am so happy to see you are back! Good Job SBL!
ReplyDeleteIt may be trite but you'll accomplish your goal...one step at a time. I can relate to what you're saying about staying focused. For YEARS I have been trying to get this College 15 off: starting and stopping. I got to a point where I said "To Hell With It!" and just did what I wanted. As I approach 40, I'm beginning to realize the error in my ways. I just don't feel good anymore. What I've realized is that I am the only one who can affect change. Will I be able to run a marathon on day 1? The overachiever Type A in me says yes but I have to answer to the REAL me. Thanks for continuing to share!
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