Sitting here feeling triump on the day. I have only dipped 3 times today, but boy do I feel the consequences......... ............the meanness is ooooooozing out of me. I can feel the bulge in my eyeballs! No one has done anything to me? I have had a nice evening but for some reason I am feeling mad at the world.
Why does change require so much effort? It seems like all I have done this last year is analyze myself and try to implement some positive change in my life. In some areas I have been highly successful but in others I suck dirt!!!! It's hard to not want everything to be exactly the way you want it right NOW. I guess the inner Diva in me is poking it's little head (I know little is not a word used to describe my head often, just go with it) out and flexing her muscles.
She is a mighty beast!!! She is not to be messed with. It doesn't help to have a 60lb lab demnding every waking eye to on her. She is the Chocolate Princess dammit!
At this point the only thing I know to do is surrender...... Go to Bed! How hard that simple task seems to be sometimes. My mind runs constantly. What if's, Maybe's, Past, Present, Future, Family, Friends, Work, a house, more money, failure, success, What will be????? I still have so much work to do!!!!
Keep Moving Forward...... Patience and Persistance is the key...
Good Night
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